3 May 2013
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I took a new picture because I was specifically asked if I could post an updated back progress photo… the bottom shot was taken this morning, I look a bit shiny because I was getting ready to go out for my run and I was covered in sun cream.
I post progress photos to help inspire others, because all I can show you is what’s on the outside, but the real progress is on the inside.  I no longer have migraines.  I no longer have heart palpitations or tingling arms.  My allergies are gone.  My bursitis and other joint problems are gone. I no longer have to take two naps just to have enough energy to get through the day.  Best of all, I no longer have to struggle with food and exercise, because I did and continue to do the necessary psychological work that is at the heart of all this.
If you’re confused about what I mean by “psychological work,” and/or you’ve struggled up and down with obesity and you’re tired of fighting yourself and you want to be done with it for good this time, I’ve written about how I did it here, here, and here, and there’s additional information in my sidebar.
FITBLRS!  You know I love you.  Without this community…. gah, I don’t even want to think about it.  You guys are the best.  Much love.

I took a new picture because I was specifically asked if I could post an updated back progress photo… the bottom shot was taken this morning, I look a bit shiny because I was getting ready to go out for my run and I was covered in sun cream.

I post progress photos to help inspire others, because all I can show you is what’s on the outside, but the real progress is on the inside.  I no longer have migraines.  I no longer have heart palpitations or tingling arms.  My allergies are gone.  My bursitis and other joint problems are gone. I no longer have to take two naps just to have enough energy to get through the day.  Best of all, I no longer have to struggle with food and exercise, because I did and continue to do the necessary psychological work that is at the heart of all this.

If you’re confused about what I mean by “psychological work,” and/or you’ve struggled up and down with obesity and you’re tired of fighting yourself and you want to be done with it for good this time, I’ve written about how I did it here, here, and here, and there’s additional information in my sidebar.

FITBLRS!  You know I love you.  Without this community…. gah, I don’t even want to think about it.  You guys are the best.  Much love.

28 April 2013
4,063 notes
If you think a year can’t make that much of a difference, or that you’d better set an easy goal because you’re too far gone to be able to achieve a huge goal… I hope this changes your mind.
This didn’t start out as a progress photo, the one on the right was just a quick snap I took the other day (lens cap in hand) because I see myself more accurately in photos than I do in the mirror.  Recently I’ve been trying on some clothes from the Town Whore spring collection, because why not, and I wanted to know if it was working for me or if it looked ridiculous.  Verdict: some of both, yay!  Not pictured: five-inch heels, also both amazing and ridiculous.  Luckily I live in a beach resort area and everyone here dresses slutty all summer, so this year I’m going to join them BECAUSE WHY NOT.
I bought the dress as a clothing goal before many of you were born, and it’s been packed away for twenty years as I inched farther and farther away from that goal.  I finally managed to get on a train going in the right direction, and now finally I can wear this dress.
Changing yourself is not easy, but it is worth it. Your other option is not to do anything and keep complaining about how hard it is and keep wishing that it’ll magically happen on its own someday. How well has that worked so far?
If we don’t already know each other and you have questions, the answers are most likely here, here, here, or in my sidebar, and if you still have questions after that, my ask is always open.
Social support is so important, and if you’re like me and don’t really have family or friends who understand, the fitblr community is such an amazing resource. You guys are my rock, and I love each and every one of you.  When we all move to Fitblr Island I promise I’ll throw the best beach party ever for you guys. ♥

If you think a year can’t make that much of a difference, or that you’d better set an easy goal because you’re too far gone to be able to achieve a huge goal… I hope this changes your mind.

This didn’t start out as a progress photo, the one on the right was just a quick snap I took the other day (lens cap in hand) because I see myself more accurately in photos than I do in the mirror.  Recently I’ve been trying on some clothes from the Town Whore spring collection, because why not, and I wanted to know if it was working for me or if it looked ridiculous.  Verdict: some of both, yay!  Not pictured: five-inch heels, also both amazing and ridiculous.  Luckily I live in a beach resort area and everyone here dresses slutty all summer, so this year I’m going to join them BECAUSE WHY NOT.

I bought the dress as a clothing goal before many of you were born, and it’s been packed away for twenty years as I inched farther and farther away from that goal.  I finally managed to get on a train going in the right direction, and now finally I can wear this dress.

Changing yourself is not easy, but it is worth it. Your other option is not to do anything and keep complaining about how hard it is and keep wishing that it’ll magically happen on its own someday. How well has that worked so far?

If we don’t already know each other and you have questions, the answers are most likely here, here, here, or in my sidebar, and if you still have questions after that, my ask is always open.

Social support is so important, and if you’re like me and don’t really have family or friends who understand, the fitblr community is such an amazing resource. You guys are my rock, and I love each and every one of you.  When we all move to Fitblr Island I promise I’ll throw the best beach party ever for you guys. ♥

18 April 2013
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Photo on the left taken April, 2012; photo on the right taken yesterday.  The initial reason for the new photo was to show off the shirt, which I bought yesterday at H&M and really love.  It’s my first clothing purchase since autumn, and I was shocked to discover that I’m now a 34, which is a US4 / UK6.  This is shocking because I remember trying to squeeze into size 42 shorts last September and failing. I haven’t lost much weight since then but I’ve been leaning out a lot, and yesterday I tried on size 38 shorts (the smallest available in that style) and they were too roomy.
So yes, there’s progress.  It isn’t really my goal to get smaller, but it does seem to be a side effect of getting leaner. :-)

Photo on the left taken April, 2012; photo on the right taken yesterday.  The initial reason for the new photo was to show off the shirt, which I bought yesterday at H&M and really love.  It’s my first clothing purchase since autumn, and I was shocked to discover that I’m now a 34, which is a US4 / UK6.  This is shocking because I remember trying to squeeze into size 42 shorts last September and failing. I haven’t lost much weight since then but I’ve been leaning out a lot, and yesterday I tried on size 38 shorts (the smallest available in that style) and they were too roomy.

So yes, there’s progress.  It isn’t really my goal to get smaller, but it does seem to be a side effect of getting leaner. :-)

13 April 2013
282 notes
Photos on the left taken fourteen months ago; photos on the right taken this morning.  The shirt is the same, but the grey trousers had to go to charity because they wouldn’t stay up over my hips anymore.
This is not a before-and-after, but a earlier-during-and-later-during.  Fitness and health don’t have a start line or a finish line - it took me a long time to realise that, and the fitblr community was a big part of that epiphany.  Love to you all!

Photos on the left taken fourteen months ago; photos on the right taken this morning.  The shirt is the same, but the grey trousers had to go to charity because they wouldn’t stay up over my hips anymore.

This is not a before-and-after, but a earlier-during-and-later-during.  Fitness and health don’t have a start line or a finish line - it took me a long time to realise that, and the fitblr community was a big part of that epiphany.  Love to you all!

7 April 2013
569 notes
Wow, I just noticed today that I haven’t posted a progress photo since January!  So here’s a newer one.  I’ll take some even newer ones later this month.
If you’re going to ask me the perennial “how” question… there’s no magic pill or diet, come on, you know that.  If you’re still clinging to the hope that it’ll just magically happen somehow, good luck with that. I did that for many years and predictably got the result I deserved for doing basically nothing.  The good news is that the daily activities of health and fitness are so. damned. rewarding.  I don’t even care about my weight anymore, I just love getting up in the morning to run and swim and fuel my body in a non-destructive way, which is something the me on the left hadn’t really grasped yet.
If you want to know how to get to that point, where you actually enjoy treating your body right no matter what size, weight, or shape it is, you’re going to have to work on the most stubborn body part first: the brain.  The physical journey is just a side effect of getting your psychological issues sorted out.  It’s not the other way around, you’re not going to fix your underlying root issues by starving yourself to a certain weight.
By the way, I had to donate the trousers in the first photo to charity.  They literally would not stay up over my hips anymore, they just fell to the ground.
I love all my fitblr peeps!  This is the best community on the internet and I owe you guys everything for keeping me inspired every day.  A million thanks to each and every one of you. ♥

Wow, I just noticed today that I haven’t posted a progress photo since January!  So here’s a newer one.  I’ll take some even newer ones later this month.

If you’re going to ask me the perennial “how” question… there’s no magic pill or diet, come on, you know that.  If you’re still clinging to the hope that it’ll just magically happen somehow, good luck with that. I did that for many years and predictably got the result I deserved for doing basically nothing.  The good news is that the daily activities of health and fitness are so. damned. rewarding.  I don’t even care about my weight anymore, I just love getting up in the morning to run and swim and fuel my body in a non-destructive way, which is something the me on the left hadn’t really grasped yet.

If you want to know how to get to that point, where you actually enjoy treating your body right no matter what size, weight, or shape it is, you’re going to have to work on the most stubborn body part first: the brain.  The physical journey is just a side effect of getting your psychological issues sorted out.  It’s not the other way around, you’re not going to fix your underlying root issues by starving yourself to a certain weight.

By the way, I had to donate the trousers in the first photo to charity.  They literally would not stay up over my hips anymore, they just fell to the ground.

I love all my fitblr peeps!  This is the best community on the internet and I owe you guys everything for keeping me inspired every day.  A million thanks to each and every one of you. ♥

2 January 2013
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If any of you are a hundred pounds overweight and have had a big belly forever and are doubtful that it would ever be possible to see significant fat reduction in that area… hopefully this will encourage you as much as it encourages me.  One year of progress, and I’m not to where I want to be yet, but I’m certainly proud of how far I’ve come in a year.
Please note that there is no such thing as spot reduction.  If you want to get rid of your belly, you just have to keep reducing your overall body fat through clean nutrition and generous amounts of strenuous activity.  If you’re reducing your body fat but your belly seems to be hanging on for dear life, don’t despair or give up - you’re not alone. My belly didn’t budge much at all for the first eight months, it was absolutely the last area in which I started seeing progress.  Yes, that can be frustrating; I urge you to brush off the frustration and just keep chipping away at your fitness goals, as it all makes a difference even if you can’t see the difference right away.  The fitness is the best part, anyway, and by the time the belly starts shifting, it’ll just be a nice bonus.
Happy 2013, fitblrs - many thanks to all of your for your support and your endless dedication to your health and well-being.  Much love. ♥

[click on the photo for the larger version]

If any of you are a hundred pounds overweight and have had a big belly forever and are doubtful that it would ever be possible to see significant fat reduction in that area… hopefully this will encourage you as much as it encourages me.  One year of progress, and I’m not to where I want to be yet, but I’m certainly proud of how far I’ve come in a year.

Please note that there is no such thing as spot reduction.  If you want to get rid of your belly, you just have to keep reducing your overall body fat through clean nutrition and generous amounts of strenuous activity.  If you’re reducing your body fat but your belly seems to be hanging on for dear life, don’t despair or give up - you’re not alone. My belly didn’t budge much at all for the first eight months, it was absolutely the last area in which I started seeing progress.  Yes, that can be frustrating; I urge you to brush off the frustration and just keep chipping away at your fitness goals, as it all makes a difference even if you can’t see the difference right away.  The fitness is the best part, anyway, and by the time the belly starts shifting, it’ll just be a nice bonus.

Happy 2013, fitblrs - many thanks to all of your for your support and your endless dedication to your health and well-being.  Much love. ♥

2 January 2013
581 notes
One-year progress photos, profile.  219lbs to 150, though the weight loss is just a side effect of the fitness work I’ve been doing.  I’m happy with the progress and also happy to see what I want to work on next.  I have a lot of fitness goals for this year, but it’s also nice to take a brief look at how far I’ve come.

One-year progress photos, profile.  219lbs to 150, though the weight loss is just a side effect of the fitness work I’ve been doing.  I’m happy with the progress and also happy to see what I want to work on next.  I have a lot of fitness goals for this year, but it’s also nice to take a brief look at how far I’ve come.

2 January 2013
43 notes
One year progress photos - 219lbs down to 150.  Lots of changes here; lots more to come this year.  Weight loss is not my primary goal, but it has been a happy side effect of pursuing my fitness and health goals.  I’m pleased with what I see here but I also see some things I want to work on, so bring on 2013.

One year progress photos - 219lbs down to 150.  Lots of changes here; lots more to come this year.  Weight loss is not my primary goal, but it has been a happy side effect of pursuing my fitness and health goals.  I’m pleased with what I see here but I also see some things I want to work on, so bring on 2013.

24 December 2012
48 notes
Happy Christmas Eve!  It’s kind of hard to see what I’m wearing, but those trousers have been on the goal list for more than fifteen years.  I bought them in 1996 or ‘97 - the shop only had one pair, in size S, and although they were way too small, I loved how they looked, so I bought them with the thought that “soon” I would get lean enough to fit into them.
A decade and a half later… here I am!  They fit perfectly now, for the first time ever.  I think I’d pretty much stopped believing that they’d ever fit.  Never say never. :-)
Hope everyone is having a great Christmas Eve!

Happy Christmas Eve!  It’s kind of hard to see what I’m wearing, but those trousers have been on the goal list for more than fifteen years.  I bought them in 1996 or ‘97 - the shop only had one pair, in size S, and although they were way too small, I loved how they looked, so I bought them with the thought that “soon” I would get lean enough to fit into them.

A decade and a half later… here I am!  They fit perfectly now, for the first time ever.  I think I’d pretty much stopped believing that they’d ever fit.  Never say never. :-)

Hope everyone is having a great Christmas Eve!

10 December 2012
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So many feels.  I cannot believe that first picture was me this February, like, ten months ago. WHO IS THAT PERSON I DON’T EVEN.  And that was after I’d already lost eleven pounds, I was 219 at the beginning of January.
I’m having some very complicated reactions to this, most of which are related to the fact that I was in complete denial about the extent of my obesity and about how I looked and felt.  I had some frightening health issues that I wrote off to situational stress - I think it’s fairly telling that I have just as much stress in my life now but the scary symptoms have pretty much disappeared.  I haven’t had a migraine in months.  I used to get heart palpitations and pains in my left arm at night, which I told myself was normal for someone with my stress level.  When I looked in the mirror at my starting weight I honestly didn’t think I was fat enough for my health problems to be weight-related, but now, looking at this, I’m wondering if I was on crack.
I fully recognise the fitblr community’s role in waking me up - I appreciate each one of you every single day.  I now work out regularly and make food choices I’m proud of, and you people were definitely instrumental in inspiring me to make those changes.
Fit for life, forever grateful. ♥

So many feels.  I cannot believe that first picture was me this February, like, ten months ago. WHO IS THAT PERSON I DON’T EVEN.  And that was after I’d already lost eleven pounds, I was 219 at the beginning of January.

I’m having some very complicated reactions to this, most of which are related to the fact that I was in complete denial about the extent of my obesity and about how I looked and felt.  I had some frightening health issues that I wrote off to situational stress - I think it’s fairly telling that I have just as much stress in my life now but the scary symptoms have pretty much disappeared.  I haven’t had a migraine in months.  I used to get heart palpitations and pains in my left arm at night, which I told myself was normal for someone with my stress level.  When I looked in the mirror at my starting weight I honestly didn’t think I was fat enough for my health problems to be weight-related, but now, looking at this, I’m wondering if I was on crack.

I fully recognise the fitblr community’s role in waking me up - I appreciate each one of you every single day.  I now work out regularly and make food choices I’m proud of, and you people were definitely instrumental in inspiring me to make those changes.

Fit for life, forever grateful. ♥

15 November 2012
451 notes
I wasn’t going to assemble any more progress shots until the beginning of December when I’m due for updated ones, but today I needed a reminder, so I put this together for myself, and hopefully there’s at least one other person out there who can benefit from seeing where they could be after a few months’ work.  It’s exciting to think about what my June 2013 progress photos will look like. :-)
One thing I can see in this comparison that matches up to a suspicion I had: my forearms have slimmed down!  In the mirror I was thinking that they seemed more toned, but then I thought it must be my imagination.  But no, apparently that’s a real thing.
You guys are the ones who inspire me daily, all my gratitude goes out to the unbelievably awesome fitblr community.

I wasn’t going to assemble any more progress shots until the beginning of December when I’m due for updated ones, but today I needed a reminder, so I put this together for myself, and hopefully there’s at least one other person out there who can benefit from seeing where they could be after a few months’ work.  It’s exciting to think about what my June 2013 progress photos will look like. :-)

One thing I can see in this comparison that matches up to a suspicion I had: my forearms have slimmed down!  In the mirror I was thinking that they seemed more toned, but then I thought it must be my imagination.  But no, apparently that’s a real thing.

You guys are the ones who inspire me daily, all my gratitude goes out to the unbelievably awesome fitblr community.

5 November 2012
155 notes
New progress photo to remind me of how far I’ve come… what’s weird to me is that my before photo was less than a year ago, and yet I absolutely do not remember what it was like to be that size.  It seems like another world, another person.  So grateful for this journey.

New progress photo to remind me of how far I’ve come… what’s weird to me is that my before photo was less than a year ago, and yet I absolutely do not remember what it was like to be that size.  It seems like another world, another person.  So grateful for this journey.

18 October 2012
27 notes
Here’s one of the outfits I picked up at the charity clothing swap thing last weekend!  I guess this isn’t a progress shot per se, but if you look at my other photos from earlier in the year I think I’m looking pretty different.  Which is nice to say, because there have certainly been times when I didn’t think I could see the changes in my body.
I’m definitely thankful to the clothing swap for providing me with inexpensive clothes that fit my new shape, because it makes a marked difference in terms of what I see in the mirror.  And by “clothes that fit” I mean I’m aware I’m poured into these jeans, but so far no one has complained about being able to see my thigh muscle definition through my clothes… probably because they’ve figured out that if they did complain, a kick from these legs would hurt pretty bad.  And good luck outrunning me, if that’s your plan.
Hahahaa omg who is this girl, I have created a monster! :-)
ANYWAY.  My point is, if you’re out there feeling discouraged and think that getting fit will take forever, have a look at my progress photos and note that I’ve only been at this since January, and I didn’t really wake up and start working out in earnest until the middle of the summer, at which point the changes started accelerating like holy shit.  So it happens faster than you think, but in order for it to happen you do need to start.
As always, you fitblrs are my rock, I am so grateful and eternally indebted to this community.  I hope you all are having a great week!

Here’s one of the outfits I picked up at the charity clothing swap thing last weekend!  I guess this isn’t a progress shot per se, but if you look at my other photos from earlier in the year I think I’m looking pretty different.  Which is nice to say, because there have certainly been times when I didn’t think I could see the changes in my body.

I’m definitely thankful to the clothing swap for providing me with inexpensive clothes that fit my new shape, because it makes a marked difference in terms of what I see in the mirror.  And by “clothes that fit” I mean I’m aware I’m poured into these jeans, but so far no one has complained about being able to see my thigh muscle definition through my clothes… probably because they’ve figured out that if they did complain, a kick from these legs would hurt pretty bad.  And good luck outrunning me, if that’s your plan.

Hahahaa omg who is this girl, I have created a monster! :-)

ANYWAY.  My point is, if you’re out there feeling discouraged and think that getting fit will take forever, have a look at my progress photos and note that I’ve only been at this since January, and I didn’t really wake up and start working out in earnest until the middle of the summer, at which point the changes started accelerating like holy shit.  So it happens faster than you think, but in order for it to happen you do need to start.

As always, you fitblrs are my rock, I am so grateful and eternally indebted to this community.  I hope you all are having a great week!

5 October 2012
319 notes
New progress photo!  About 4.5 months of work here.  What’s odd is that I don’t really do a lot of back-specific work, but I do arms and core stuff and I suppose back gets incorporated into that somewhat.  Obviously I’m also still reducing my overall body fat, and of course that plays a tremendous role in the visibility of my muscle definition.
For those who don’t know me: I don’t go to the gym and I have absolutely no fitness equipment, not even hand weights.  I work out at home and around my neighbourhood, using my own body weight, household objects, and local children.  I also make good use of the motivation and inspiration to be found within the fitblr community.  You guys are total rock stars and I love you all!

New progress photo!  About 4.5 months of work here.  What’s odd is that I don’t really do a lot of back-specific work, but I do arms and core stuff and I suppose back gets incorporated into that somewhat.  Obviously I’m also still reducing my overall body fat, and of course that plays a tremendous role in the visibility of my muscle definition.

For those who don’t know me: I don’t go to the gym and I have absolutely no fitness equipment, not even hand weights.  I work out at home and around my neighbourhood, using my own body weight, household objects, and local children.  I also make good use of the motivation and inspiration to be found within the fitblr community.  You guys are total rock stars and I love you all!

a different hunger

a different hunger

All fitblr, all the time.

I AM NOT CURRENTLY ENDORSING ANY PRODUCTS, AND I WILL NEVER ENDORSE A WEIGHT LOSS PRODUCT OF ANY KIND. IF YOU SEE ANY OF MY PHOTOS ATTACHED TO ADS FOR WEIGHT LOSS PRODUCTS, YOU CAN SAFELY ASSUME THE PHOTO IS STOLEN, AND PLEASE LET ME KNOW.

Back in 2012 I finally decided to start taking care of myself. I went from being a class II obese sedentary person to being a lean, energetic competitive runner and all-around fitness freak. Although I do track my weight for the purpose of checking in with myself, being a certain weight is never my goal. Getting down to a healthy body fat percentage has simply been a side effect of good nutrition and consistent training. In turn, the good nutrition and consistent training have been a side effect of doing the necessary psychological work, i.e. dealing with the emotional and mental issues that led me to obesity in the first place. So If you’re looking for my magic success formula, there it is: sort your head out, the rest will follow.